Recognition - the first step

I have a problem. Recognizing it is the first step in my journey to recovery. I have been a Dr. Pepper addict on and off for the last 20 years give or take. I have had some huge successes in the past including quitting cold turkey and remaining clean for 3 years. However, today was a new low. I had a Dr. Pepper with lunch. It was exactly the way I love it in a glass full of crushed ice. It was nearly full when I accidentally bumped it. The glass shattered all over the counter and the floor. Was my first thought a worry that my kids would cut themselves? Was it sadness that I would have to clean up and throw away the glass? Did I worry about my beautiful cabinets that were now splattered? No. My first thought? I won't ever be able to drink that perfect glass of Dr. Pepper.